Robin Williams killed himself yesterday. This world makes no sense. First Michael, then Whitney, now him? I don't get it; the bad ones keep on living while the good ones keep on dying. This world continues to make no fucking sense.

My ideal mate...

A man taller than me, handsome, older than me (preferably by at least 5 years), not necessarily dark, experienced, wise, gentle (only when needed), mature, kind, logical, rational, intelligent, powerful, charismatic, consistent, fair, and secure. Someone who can teach me something, has above average listening skills, an easygoing nature, a defined sense of aesthetics, morals, values...someone with decency, integrity, strength, an even temper, controlled emotions, self-possession, gravitas, dignity, and courage.

Essentially, this man would be the only one who, first and foremost, can make me feel calm and safe and protected. He must defend me and must not intentionally hurt me; if he does hurt me, then he must be sincerely apologetic, in words and actions. He will be honest, more honest with himself and about himself and me, including when I've made a mistake (or when he has), than most anybody. Someone who, when he talks, I love just listening to him talk...he would usually have a unique and cogent point of view or even just an interesting way of saying things. He must be clever and funny and have a wicked sense of humour and make me smile; when happy or excited, it's infectious. He must be outgoing, supremely confident , and unapologetically himself. He must accept me for who I am. 

I love men, I love testosterone and have a weakness for alpha males; I quite like being a geisha. I tend to go for the creative ones, mainly musicians. I like a bad-ass man who knows what he wants and is ambitious and intrepid enough to go get it. He might not be what I'd bring home to mum, but it wouldn't matter, he would complement me in every way. Someone intelligent, who appreciates the finer things in life whether it's the prototypical luxury items or a nice clear sunny day outside. Someone with a varied and defined sense of aesthetics, and a cool even temper. He can be an asshole to everyone else, as long as he treats me like a queen and fucks me like a whore, I'll be quite pleased.

Personality test

2.1 'Emotional stability'

This personality trait pertains to the extent to which a person is sensitive to stimuli in the environment and needs to have certainty and stability.


Your score on this trait is average. This means that you are normally relatively calm. Your emotional response primarily depends on the situation. You only feel stressed or out of balance when put under pressure or forced to deal with setbacks. It is not very difficult to get you riled, and in general you may feel bad about losing, but this does not keep you awake at night. It is relatively easy for you to get past feelings, such as shame. You certainly have your doubts and worries, but these do not dominate your thinking. Most of the time you can think rationally and put emotions into their proper perspective.

2.2 'Extraversion'

This personality trait pertains to the need for social stimuli. It sketches the extent to which a person goes looking for action and others, for the place where things are happening, or tends to avoid disturbances.

Your score on this trait is extremely low. With others, your attitude is relatively reserved or formal in comparison with other people. In general, you have little need for external stimuli and you like being alone. This does not mean that you are anti-social, however. You simply do not feel the need to be heard or to voice your opinion unasked. You appear to be reserved and you are less talkative with others. You like to take one thing at a time. You enjoy being alone. You can be typified as a person who tests the waters. Others may consider you to be quiet and closed. You prefer to be with people who, like yourself, like staying in the background. You feel less at ease with people who are highly spontaneous and enthusiastic.

2.3 'Conscientiousness'

This personality trait pertains to purposefulness. It reflects the extent to which a person is focused, exact and orderly, or flexible instead.

Your score on this trait is average. This indicates that you are a person who has his/her affairs reasonably well organized. You like to take a systematic approach without being too prudent. It is probably relatively easy for you to find a healthy balance between your work and your private life. You are the kind of person who can achieve impressive results with relatively little effort. However, striving for perfection is not in your nature. In other words, you are a person who acts to achieve a certain goal but who is willing to compromise. This makes you both effective and flexible, so that many people consider you to be a pleasant colleague or person. In general, you get along well with people who like order and neatness. As long as they are not too persistent.

2.4 'Agreeableness'

This personality trait pertains to attentiveness and people mindedness. It indicates the extent to which a person is interested in other people, and how affable the person is. A lower score points to a more business-like and functional approach.

Your score on this trait is extremely low. In comparison to others, you are relatively direct. In general, your approach to others is business-like and sometimes even somewhat detached. In comparison with others, you are strong-willed. This means that you are a person who is generally competitive, in any event more so than others. Every now and then, others will think that your attitude is superior. You are not always the first to quickly or spontaneously help others with their personal problems. You can appear to be insensitive, stubborn and business-like. As a result, sometimes people will think you are not nice. However, people will also respect or appreciate you for your relatively direct and business-like attitude. In general, you get along well with people who, like yourself, are independent and straightforward. It is usually more difficult for you to deal with people who tend to be extremely mild or who try to be indirect.

2.5 'Openness'

This personality trait pertains to originality and intellect. It is related to the extent to which a person searches for new insights, or has a more practical, routine-like attitude.

Your score on this trait is high. This means that you probably have a relatively well-developed imagination. Others will sometimes typify you as being creative or reflective. You sometimes show broad interest and curiosity. You are often open to new experiences, solutions or values. Sometimes you tend to break away from routines and fixed patterns. You are often curious and take a relatively broad view. You enjoy exchanging ideas sometimes or acquiring new knowledge. You are not very fond of routines and fixed patterns. In certain ways, others may consider you to be curious, exciting or learned. You can become troubled when people are afraid to discuss things or insist upon maintaining the status quo. You feel more comfortable with people who can be independent or original.

3. Key personality types

In this section, whether combinations of personality traits will result in an additional key personality type is reviewed. You have seen your score for each of the main traits for the Big Five. The score was assessed in terms of (very) high, (just) above-average, average, (just) below-average or (very) low. Combining the non-average scores results in key personality types that significantly add to your five personality traits. A key personality type can be used to summarize your personality based on your scores for the Big Five. A person with an very high score for Emotional stability and an very high score for Extraversion can also be very decisive. This person will be relatively unaffected by stress while also being the type to easily take charge. A person who scores above average for these personality traits but not very high has this personality type to a somewhat lesser degree. The personality type is then applicable clearly or depending on the situation rather than very clearly
Based on your scores the following key personality types are very clearly applicable:
Your scores for Extraversion and Agreeableness can result in an attitude that can be typified as strict.Other characteristic of this type of personality can be a preference for being alone and a rational approach towards people. As a result, these people may seem to be stiff or gruff in the perception of specific others.

Your scores for Openness and Agreeableness can result in a personality that can be typified as rebellious and critical. People with this type of personality like to leave the beaten path without first taking the feelings of others into account. In interaction with others this personality may be considered challenging and self-willed.

Your scores for Openness and Extraversion can result in a personality that can be typified as philosophical. People with this type of personality generally have broad interests and prefer to work alone. In their behavior, they may sometimes seem to be individualistic, complicated or sagacious.

4. Summary

Some people are naturally more modest while others gladly sing their own praises. Because this report reflects how you see yourself, the results may have been influenced in a certain direction. You can also have someone else who knows you relatively well complete the test about you. Differences as compared to the test you completed for yourself may say something about your self-image or the way you show yourself to others.
Personality traits are generally considered to be relatively constant over the course of time. It is therefore wiser to look at the traits that you have and how they can be used to your advantage than to try to change a trait. That is much more difficult if not impossible, and requires relatively much more energy. Moreover, a certain trait that is less desirable in some situations can be highly advantageous in another situation, work or otherwise. The challenge is finding a hobby, study, partner, and home or work environment that is the best suited to your personality. The better the fit between your environment and your personality, the more at ease you will be and the better you will feel. This can be translated into happiness, success or pleasant relationships with others.
Lastly, it should be noted that this test measures five of your personality traits. A person's personality cannot, however, be completely expressed in five traits. Each individual is too unique to determine exactly how his or her personality works merely based on a list of questions. This test gives you the vocabulary with which you can look at yourself in comparison to others and learn from that comparison. In other words, understand that the test summarizes your personality without an ultimate total judgment. That is theoretically nearly impossible to do.

Career test results

In this test you had to choose between pictures showing specific work activities. Each picture depicted work associated with a specific type of personality. These types are derived from Dr. John Holland's theory of careers and vocational choice, known as Holland Codes.
There are six personality types in Holland's model:

• Realistic: practical, physical, concrete, hands-on, machine, and tool-oriented
• Investigative: analytical, intellectual, scientific, explorative, thinker
• Artistic: creative, original, independent, chaotic, inventive, media, graphics, and text
• Social: cooperative, supporting, helping, healing/nurturing, teaching
• Enterprising: competitive environments, leadership, persuading, status
• Conventional: detail-oriented, organizing, clerical

Personality types and Holland Codes

Dr. Holland did not say that a person is just one of these types. Then there would be only six types of people in the world. Instead, any one person can have interests associated with all of the six types. When you rank the types, starting with those you have the most interest in to those you have the least interest in, you get your specific Holland Code.
There are some 720 different combinations possible, like ISERAC, AIRSEC, or CSERIA. Generally, however, only two or three letters are necessary to create a useful description, such as SC, IRC, or AIC. Such a description may apply to both a person and a work environment. By typifying both people and work environments with Holland Codes, we can calculate matches between them. This helps you assess a potential career or vocational choice.

Your personality type

You preferred 'Investigative' the most, followed by 'Conventional' and 'Artistic'. Your six letter personality type is 'ICARES'. Your personal preference is also shown in a graph below.

Your personal Holland Code

Depending on how strongly you favor any specific type you can compose your own personal Holland Code. You do this by taking the first letters of the types you favor most. In your case, this is the letters I, C and A Your personal Holland Code then becomes either ICA, IC, CI or even CIA.

Your jobs

Here is a list of jobs that fit your Holland code ICARES. The list is only part of all jobs that fit your personality. You should use this list of occupations as prototypical examples. A total of 20 occupations are suggested based on your score.

Work values test result:



Team roles test result:

Analyst

The analyst has a tendency to be reserved and critical. The analyst will also react to plans and ideas in a rational and sensible way. He or she will favor a prudent approach to matters and will evaluate them according to their accuracy before acting.

Expert

The expert has the skills and expertise required for the specific task at hand. He or she has a strong focus on the task and may get defensive when others interfere with his or her work. The expert prefers to work alone and team members often have a great deal of trust and confidence in him or her.

Executive

The executive is sometimes also referred to as the organizer. The executive is generally disciplined and eager to get the job done. He or she is efficient, practical, and systematic. Executives are well organized and diligent, and quickly turn the ideas of a team into concrete actions and practical plans.

Driver

The driver is generally very ambitious and energetic. He or she may appear as impatient and impulsive. The driver is a strong motivator and will challenge others at crucial times. Although the actions of the driver may sometimes seem somewhat emotional, they do play a crucial role in pushing the team forward to succeed.

Innovator

The innovator is often the creative generator of a team. He or she has a strong imagination and a desire to be original. The innovator prefers to be independent and tends to approach tasks in a scientific way. As an creative individual the innovator may play a crucial role in the way a team approaches tasks and solves problems.

Completer

The completer is very conscientious and feels responsible for the team's achievements. Completers are concerned when errors are made and they tend to worry because of their controlling nature. The completer is also known as the finisher because they are most effectively used at the end of a task, to polish and scrutinize the work for errors, subjecting it to the highest standards of quality control.

Chairman

The chairman has a strong coordinating role. With an emphasis on procedures, the chairman will try to bring and keep the team together. He or she is communicative and deals with the members of the team in a respectful and open-minded way.

Team player

The team player is caring, avoids conflicts, and fosters harmony. Being someone who likes to help other people, the team player is generally considered agreeable and friendly. He or she is diplomatic and emphasizes solidarity and team cohesion.

Explorer

The explorer is generally an extrovert by nature. He or she is cheerful, gregarious. The explorer is also investigative, interested and curious about things. Because explorers like to improvise and communicate with others, they will have little problem presenting ideas to the team and developing new contacts.

Things that make me content

Yves Klein, La Vague

Everything blue (my favourite colour)
Capturing moments in photos
Autumn
Hearing my favourite songs for the first time after a long time
Inside jokes
Art
My books
My electronics
My friends
Nice strangers
Nostalgia
The elderly
People I have something in common with
Proper grammar
Quirky people
Listening to "Fool In The Rain" as I devour Belgian waffles with strawberry preserves
Unexpectedly finding myself thinking in French
Warm, well lit rooms
Old souls
Men that fancy me
Things that taste like fire
Enjoying the cinema by myself
Being home alone on a sunlit afternoon
Reading
Secret smiles
Being seduced
Doing little things that others aren't allowed to
Spending time with my father
Sweaters, especially striped ones
The smell of old books
Army boots and brogue like shoes
Winter sun
Writing inspiration
The way nature slowly but surely wakes up in springtime
Astronomy/astrophysics
Chemistry
Genetics/genealogy
Snow (not shoveling it, however...)
Wandering through the woods
Fireplaces
Abandoned places
Fireflies on a summertime night
Cloudless skies
Iced sweet tea on a porch
Parasols
Burnt grass
Watermelon
Lavender lemonade
Straw hats
Christmas
Cherries
Dreaming of winter
Clover tea with honey
Cotton blankets
Wood fires with pine cones
Violet sweets
Woolen scarves
Brass doorknobs
Candlelight
Bubble baths
Music boxes
The evening star
Sundried sheets
Paper dolls
Cirrus clouds
Oxford commas
Cream cheese pastries
Vintage style (anything from the antiquity of actual fashion and style up until the 1980s; the '70s were the end of real style for me)
Classical music
Butterfly gardens
Antique shops
Any music prior to 1995 (after that, all genres of music generally went into a downward spiral from which it will hopefully some day recover)
Thesauri
English estates
Bookstores
Mint sleepy tea
Receiving packages in the mail
Men with accents (British, Irish, French, etc...)
Old typewriters
Handwritten letters
Teacups
Bike rides
Greek mythology
Stormy nights
Rain
Wine
Sex
Solitude

My Jung personality type

• Introverts tend to be reflective, reserved and private. A popular misconception is that Introverts are shy - this is not necessarily so. They draw their energy from their own thoughts and the time they spend alone. Introverts do not need people around them all the time.

• iNtuitives pay more attention to information that is imaginative and original. iNtuitives focus on the future.

• Thinkers make decisions using logic and impersonal analysis. They think with their heads rather than their hearts.

• Judgers prefer a lifestyle that is decisive, planned and orderly. They like a life that is organized and controlled

An INTJ at-a-glance

You are a natural leader. You are a confident and original thinker, and believe strongly in yourself. You are a strong individualist who seeks new angles or novel ways of looking at life. In general, you are an extremely capable and intelligent individual who strives to always do their best and continue to move in a positive direction.

Obstacles are challenges for you. You focus on your goal, creatively develop a plan and then pour all your energy into achieving your objective. Because you get so inspired and involved in what you are doing, your energy level can be awesome to behold! Of all the Personality Types, yours is the most independently individualistic.

Inventive - inspired - persistent - creative - imaginative and determined. These are all descriptions that are likely to be used by people who know you well.

Every Jung Personality type has one or two specific nicknames that concisely describe your Jung personality type, e.g. Inventor, Strategist, Protector and others..

Your probable contributions to an organization

Each Personality Type has a different set of skills, talents and attributes that they bring to an organization, group or relationship. Here is a list of those most commonly associated with Personality Types like you - INTJ.

• Has faith in his/her own inner vision which, coupled with sheer willpower, moves mountains.
• Is emphatically determined to accomplish goals and master new skills.
• Produces original thinking and is a high achiever.
• Excels at analysis: categorizes and develops strategies with accuracy and precision.
• Enjoys working in an environment where there is freedom to design future plans and visions.

On a team

Some people work well on teams, others work best on their own. Understanding the personality types of team members provides information about how individuals are likely to carry out their work and interact with each other. Given your personality preferences, the following are the strengths (and possible weaknesses!) you will most likely bring to a team:

• Participates, but in his/her own reserved style.
• Asks thoughtful and searching questions.
• Systematically schedules and completes tasks on time.
• Can be a team player if doing so will get the job done.
• Analyzes the alternatives and offers new perspectives.

Ignoring/shunning others...

I do this all the time. It's quite easy for me to do. I actually pride myself on this ability, as people (females, mostly) tend to irritate and drain the hell out of me. It really depends strongly on the person/personality and whether or not said person is actually worth my time or not; I tend to be very choosy in who I deal with. Also it's because I tend to be preoccupied a lot with different things and simply don't have the time, so a lot of folks aren't high on my priority list, if they're even on it to begin with. A lot of this is self-preservation and just basic self-respect, but some of it is because I just don’t put a lot of deliberate effort in trying to pay attention to someone or something. I simply pay attention to whomever or whatever naturally grabs my focus. I will only do what feels comfortable to me, which is why I choose to ignore people I don’t know very well. And unless the other person makes an effort to be social with me, chances are that we'll not have any further dealings with each other. To be completely honest, many of the individuals I've met simply don’t match well with me in terms of intellect, values, and interests. They're not the kind of people I'd wanna get to know/be cool with, and vice versa. I'm pretty likable (more than most, I'd say), but again, it strongly depends on who it is. Also, in the real world, verbal contact is taxing, I spend my lunch hour by myself, and I've completely cut off all contact with several people when I realized how insane they were and how much more important my own mental/emotional state was. Online, I deliberately ignore confrontational and illogical forum threads and people, whether it's on the forums I frequent or elsewhere. At the end of the day, no one's worth it.